47                                                                                                             47、第四十七章 ...                                                                                                             我搖頭，李澈的公司是ie業(yè)的，我一個(gè)純粹電白連重裝系統(tǒng)都不熟練的人去湊什么熱鬧，就算是潛規(guī)則也不能這么潛不是？                                                                                                             “不大適合，我玩不來(lái)電腦那么高端的玩意。”                                                                                                             我對(duì)李澈說(shuō)，電白不是錯(cuò)，電白要去ie公司上班這就是一個(gè)錯(cuò)了。                                                                                                             “總有職位是適合你的?！?nbsp;                                                                                                            李澈笑的很隱晦，他的話說(shuō)得也很隱晦。                                                                                                             我突然想到他今天中午說(shuō)的李涵的mama，他該不會(huì)指的就是這個(gè)職業(yè)吧？我突然像是被掐中了脖子的鴨子一樣，什么話都說(shuō)不出口了。                                                                                                             “反正我想先玩一陣子再說(shuō)。”                                                                                                             我端起了杯子喝了一口焦糖瑪奇朵，犟著腦袋開(kāi)口，反正這幾年工作攢下來(lái)的錢也足夠我再逍遙一陣了。                                                                                                             “你就打算讓我傻等下去了？”                                                                                                             李澈?jiǎn)栁?，語(yǔ)氣無(wú)奈至極。                                                                                                             “李澈，其實(shí)我一直都很想問(wèn)你一件事，”我摩挲著杯緣，這個(gè)問(wèn)題也一直困擾了我很久，“你真的很喜歡我？”                                                                                                             這么大的年紀(jì)問(wèn)男人這種問(wèn)題我都覺(jué)得有點(diǎn)不好意思了，我偷偷睨著李澈的臉，在想這個(gè)男人會(huì)不會(huì)臉紅起來(lái)，老實(shí)說(shuō)我還是挺指望看到他出現(xiàn)這種表情的。                                                                                                             但是很可惜，李澈沒(méi)有表現(xiàn)出我想要的表情來(lái)。                                                                                                             他只是用一種很奇怪的表情反問(wèn)了我一句，“不喜歡能和你攪合了那么多年？”                                                                                                             恩，這才是我不理解的時(shí)候，我一直很奇怪，他到底是什么時(shí)候喜歡我的。                                                                                                             那些年我們不算特別親密，我對(duì)他沒(méi)啥特別好的態(tài)度，而他對(duì)我也沒(méi)有什么好的口氣。                                                                                                             “怎么，打算問(wèn)清楚了就和我結(jié)婚了？”                                                                                                             “……”                                                                                                             我早知道就不應(yīng)該開(kāi)口問(wèn)了。                                                                                                             我轉(zhuǎn)開(kāi)視線看向河面，河面上一條小木船搖曳而過(guò)，這個(gè)時(shí)候的天氣剛好，風(fēng)吹來(lái)的時(shí)候感覺(jué)特別的舒適。                                                                                                             “我考慮一下?！蔽覍?duì)李澈說(shuō)。                                                                                                             如果真的要找一個(gè)男人結(jié)婚的話，我想，李澈也不算是一個(gè)很差勁的對(duì)象吧，請(qǐng)?jiān)徫?，這個(gè)時(shí)候依舊不能確定我對(duì)李澈的感情是喜歡多余感激還是其他的。                                                                                                             但是唯一肯定是，就像是李澈自己說(shuō)的那樣，能和他攪合了那么多年，絕對(duì)不能說(shuō)是厭惡，即便他的毒舌有時(shí)候真的讓我受不了。                                                                                                             “不急，你慢慢想?！?nbsp;                                                                                                            李澈聲音輕柔，他都等了那么多年，他當(dāng)然不急，能考慮也算是一個(gè)很不錯(cuò)的長(zhǎng)進(jìn)了。                                                                                                             李澈晚飯終于放棄了和我爸一起喝酒的念頭，據(jù)他說(shuō)其實(shí)我爸昨晚喝的也有點(diǎn)高，雖然不至于不省人事的份上。                                                                                                             “只是你爸皮膚b較黑了點(diǎn)，所以一時(shí)之間沒(méi)有看出來(lái)而已。”                                                                                                             李澈這么對(duì)我說(shuō)。                                                                                                             我爸喝高了之后也沒(méi)有特別大的惡習(xí)，只是鼾聲很牛叉。李澈在說(shuō)這句話的時(shí)候表情青黑，看得出來(lái)他的確深受其擾了。                                                                                                             我拍了拍他的肩膀?qū)捨克?，至少今天晚上他不需要再和我爸睡在一個(gè)被窩了，因?yàn)榻裉煜挛缥覌尠芽头渴帐傲艘幌拢疫€把床褥全部拿出去曬了，所以他也不需要委曲求全和我老爹一起睡了。                                                                                                             吃過(guò)了晚飯，李澈想要臨著河邊走上一圈，我是理所當(dāng)然的陪客，我突然由生一種我其實(shí)是sanpei的感覺(jué)，陪吃陪聊陪逛街。                                                                                                             姐當(dāng)年對(duì)寢室姐妹都沒(méi)有這么好過(guò)，除了自己主動(dòng)想要逛街的時(shí)候，其余的時(shí)候基本上都是被人si磨y泡拉出去的，而現(xiàn)在，一天逛兩次街，這頻率高的……                                                                                                             天一黑，沿河兩岸的等就會(huì)亮起來(lái)，在夜幕的點(diǎn)綴之下顯得特別的好看，很多外地來(lái)的游客也喜歡在晚上的時(shí)候出沒(méi)，幾個(gè)人租個(gè)觀光旅游的小木船，在船槳的劃動(dòng)的“咯吱”聲中賞玩小鎮(zhèn)的夜se。                                                                                                             李澈倒沒(méi)有想要坐小船，只是牽著我的手慢慢地走著，原本我還想說(shuō)劃船的都是小鎮(zhèn)上的人，大家都那么熟了要坐也不會(huì)真的收錢。                                                                                                             我和他不是第一次這么親密地接觸，在之前有過(guò)更多次，激情的纏綿的安慰的，但是像是現(xiàn)在這樣不帶一點(diǎn)ryu的牽著我的手慢慢走還是第一次。                                                                                                             李澈的手掌心很溫暖，冬天的時(shí)候很適合取暖，我們兩個(gè)就這么慢慢地走過(guò)長(zhǎng)長(zhǎng)的河岸，然后在一座石橋上坐了下來(lái)，看著在燈光下同樣五彩繽紛的河水蕩出一圈一圈的漣漪。                                                                                                             石橋上不止我和李澈兩個(gè)人，還有鎮(zhèn)上喜歡晚上出來(lái)散個(gè)步的人，當(dāng)然不可能是老夫妻一起出來(lái)的，在一起過(guò)了那么多年其實(shí)都已經(jīng)彼此有點(diǎn)審美疲勞了，哪有老夫老妻一起行動(dòng)的禮，一般x都是一個(gè)出來(lái)和老兄弟哥們ch0u兩g煙，一個(gè)出來(lái)和鄰居老姐妹嘮嗑一下家長(zhǎng)里短，等到時(shí)間差不多了之后，各自回去。                                                                                                             喜歡一起行動(dòng)的只有我們這種年輕一輩的，還暫時(shí)沒(méi)有處于審美疲勞，等到幾年之后大約也就膩了，到時(shí)候什么七年之癢啊八年之痛的估計(jì)也就全部出來(lái)了。                                                                                                             還倒不如這些個(gè)長(zhǎng)輩們的婚姻來(lái)的長(zhǎng)久，很多人一開(kāi)始的時(shí)候并沒(méi)有多少ai，因?yàn)榛橐龆谝黄?，后?lái)因?yàn)樽觧v而在一起，到最后的時(shí)候所有的感情全部化成了親情。                                                                                                             而我，我也不知道自己以后會(huì)怎么樣，這個(gè)年代誰(shuí)又能預(yù)料到會(huì)怎么辦，閃婚閃離一族層出不窮。                                                                                                             我有點(diǎn)恐慌，也沒(méi)有多少安全感。                                                                                                             我怕我現(xiàn)在一時(shí)激動(dòng)答應(yīng)了和李澈結(jié)婚之后，過(guò)兩年，他膩了之后，會(huì)像當(dāng)初靳騏離開(kāi)我一樣突然要求離開(kāi)。                                                                                                             如果要說(shuō)我有多ai靳騏，其實(shí)我可以很肯定地說(shuō)，我已經(jīng)不ai他了。                                                                                                             我ai的只是當(dāng)初自己美好的想象，ai上的只是ai情而已，就算ai過(guò)，也是我青春之中的事情了，在這么多年里面，時(shí)間已經(jīng)把我對(duì)靳騏的ai消磨殆盡了。                                                                                                             我只是怕。                                                                                                             靳騏是那條蛇，而李澈現(xiàn)在是那條井繩。                                                                                                             我不能確定有一天那無(wú)害的繩子會(huì)不會(huì)突然之間化身成為一條蛇來(lái)咬我一口。                                                                                                             被咬過(guò)的人總是想要保護(hù)自己，全方位的。                                                                                                             其實(shí)我ai自己更多一點(diǎn)，很自私的。                                                                                                             李澈和我在河邊坐了一會(huì)，吹了有近半小時(shí)的風(fēng)，吹得我通t發(fā)涼之后他終于大發(fā)善心地宣告要擺駕回g了。                                                                                                             吹的快出鼻水的我淚眼汪汪，只差沒(méi)喊上一句謝主隆恩了。                                                                                                             李澈在小鎮(zhèn)上呆了兩天，他走的時(shí)候我還賴在被窩里頭睡的迷迷糊糊的。                                                                                                             “阿墨，我要回去了?！?nbsp;                                                                                                            他吻醒我，抵著我的唇在那邊輕聲說(shuō)。                                                                                                             “哦……”我r0u著犯困的眼睛，整個(gè)人還迷迷糊糊的，“你不喝了我弟的喜酒再走？”                                                                                                             李澈在鎮(zhèn)上的時(shí)候正巧遇上了我那準(zhǔn)新郎的弟弟，我那不厚道的弟弟和打了**血一樣興奮一個(gè)勁地邀請(qǐng)李澈喝完他的喜酒再走，李澈也應(yīng)允了。                                                                                                             離婚禮還有兩天，現(xiàn)在走他就不能喝喜酒了。                                                                                                             “公司還有事，我得回去一趟怕是脫不開(kāi)身了，我把紅包塞你枕頭底下了，記得給他?！崩畛簉0u了r0u我的頭，叮囑著。                                                                                                             “那就不給紅包了吧?！?nbsp;                                                                                                            我咕噥著，一聽(tīng)到紅包就自然而然地心疼，想這幾年姐送出了多少紅包呀，一包就是好大一份。                                                                                                             “這錢就別替我省了吧，免得以后被你弟弟說(shuō)我小氣?！崩畛郝曇衾镱^帶著笑，“你好好玩一陣子，但是別忘記了回家的路?！?nbsp;                                                                                                            “啊？”                                                                                                             “回來(lái)的時(shí)候給我?guī)讉€(gè)定勝糕回來(lái)，你家這邊的b較好吃?！?nbsp;                                                                                                            “?。俊?nbsp;                                                                                                            “沒(méi)事，你接著睡?！?nbsp;                                                                                                            李澈把我按倒在床上，然后替我掖好了被角。                                                                                                             等我整個(gè)人徹底清醒的時(shí)候，李澈已經(jīng)離開(kāi)了。                                                                                                             我一m枕頭底下還真的有一個(gè)鼓鼓囊囊的紅包，那厚度看得我都想尖叫了，趕明兒我要是結(jié)婚的時(shí)候能收到這種紅包就賺大發(fā)了。                                                                                                             后來(lái)我這種想法徹底遭受到了我弟弟凌硯的鄙視。                                                                                                             “把紅包退回去吧，他用什么名義送啊！”                                                                                                             晚上的時(shí)候我看著那絕對(duì)有一定厚度沒(méi)有一萬(wàn)也有八千紅包對(duì)我弟弟說(shuō)，李澈又不算我弟弟的小兄弟又不是姐妹更不是同事，沒(méi)理由送那么大。                                                                                                             “當(dāng)然有名義！”凌硯白了我一眼，很理所當(dāng)然地把大紅包往口袋里面塞，“我姐夫唄，給個(gè)紅包應(yīng)該的！”                                                                                                             “對(duì)了姐，你記得和姐夫說(shuō)一聲，你們兩個(gè)結(jié)婚的時(shí)候我可送不出那么大一個(gè)紅包，你也知道我剛買房，還是房奴，到時(shí)候意思意思給成不？”                                                                                                             凌硯眨巴著無(wú)辜的眼睛帶著期許朝著我看。                                                                                                             48                                                                                                             48、第四十八章 ...                                                                                                             其實(shí)我也沒(méi)有在家里面呆多久，找工作的事情一拖再拖，人就是這樣一旦犯懶了之后就不會(huì)再勤奮了，就像是阿凡達(dá)小毛驢也是要在前面吊著一g胡蘿卜g引它前進(jìn)的。                                                                                                             但是我還必須回杭州一趟，因?yàn)橐荒暌欢鹊耐瑢W(xué)會(huì)又開(kāi)始了。                                                                                                             想起同學(xué)會(huì)，我大概只有一個(gè)反應(yīng)那就是——oh，sh1t！                                                                                                             當(dāng)然我不是說(shuō)同學(xué)會(huì)到底有多么多么的不好，雖然每年同學(xué)會(huì)上總是有人缺席，但是大部分人還都會(huì)忙里偷閑趕到聚會(huì)點(diǎn)，但是在這種同學(xué)會(huì)算是一場(chǎng)形式主義，大學(xué)的時(shí)候同伴情誼好的也就那么幾個(gè)，其他的人也不過(guò)就是個(gè)點(diǎn)頭之交，甚至還有幾個(gè)交惡的，但是每年都免不了那么一回事。                                                                                                             在這種攀b成風(fēng)的同學(xué)會(huì)上，總有幾個(gè)人是要成為話題人物的，b如說(shuō)誰(shuí)誰(shuí)誰(shuí)事業(yè)有成，誰(shuí)誰(shuí)誰(shuí)情場(chǎng)得意，這個(gè)時(shí)候其實(shí)所謂的同學(xué)會(huì)還真的和菜市場(chǎng)沒(méi)啥差別。                                                                                                             每年到了這個(gè)時(shí)候我都會(huì)頭疼，想著到底要不要去參加這同學(xué)會(huì)，但是畢竟當(dāng)年同學(xué)四年，每次都會(huì)y著頭皮去了。                                                                                                             今年的主辦地點(diǎn)是在杭州，主辦人是班上的團(tuán)支書。                                                                                                             一開(kāi)始班上的人提議是去上海的，但是后來(lái)得知我們當(dāng)初的校區(qū)很快就要不存在了，聽(tīng)說(shuō)這一屆的學(xué)生完了之后，下一屆的基本上都會(huì)去那**不生蛋鳥(niǎo)不拉屎據(jù)說(shuō)連逛街都沒(méi)有地方的去了，而這邊的分校已經(jīng)被投資商看中，說(shuō)是要改建成高級(jí)住宅。                                                                                                             聽(tīng)到這個(gè)消息的時(shí)候，我沉默了很久，國(guó)內(nèi)造的房子難道還不嫌多么，造那么多房?jī)r(jià)又那么高g本就沒(méi)有人買的起好不好，這不是純粹的浪費(fèi)么。                                                                                                             當(dāng)然的，資本家們不會(huì)理解我們的想法的。                                                                                                             依依和文雅都來(lái)了，我們?nèi)齻€(gè)已經(jīng)很久沒(méi)見(jiàn)了。                                                                                                             當(dāng)然，我說(shuō)的很久沒(méi)見(jiàn)當(dāng)然不包括在網(wǎng)絡(luò)視頻上的見(jiàn)面，那種隔著屏幕的，總覺(jué)得看不真切。                                                                                                             她們兩個(gè)在同學(xué)會(huì)的前一天就來(lái)了，當(dāng)然的我也在同學(xué)會(huì)的前一天就到了，我之前租的房子是一季一給付的，到現(xiàn)在還有一個(gè)月的空檔期，所以我還可以在這一室一廳的公寓里頭住一個(gè)月左右。                                                                                                             去了公寓把被褥曬的膨軟，打算晚上的時(shí)候三個(gè)人滾床單，還好雙人床夠大，足夠我們?nèi)齤情的了。                                                                                                             依依和文雅都是溫州人。                                                                                                             剛上大一的那個(gè)時(shí)候全國(guó)出現(xiàn)了“溫州炒房團(tuán)”這個(gè)名詞，那個(gè)時(shí)候在我的概念里面溫州人都是賊拉有錢，賊拉的鼻孔朝天不可一世的，擱現(xiàn)在那應(yīng)該就是老子是溫州炒房團(tuán)的后裔。                                                                                                             直到認(rèn)識(shí)了這兩個(gè)人之后我才知道，原來(lái)的觀念基本上都是錯(cuò)的，溫州人也不是個(gè)頂個(gè)都是有錢的，也有像是平常學(xué)生一樣偶爾會(huì)出去打打工給自己多賺點(diǎn)零花錢一類。                                                                                                             這兩個(gè)人下午的時(shí)候才到，她們兩個(gè)向來(lái)不放過(guò)任何可以敲詐人的機(jī)會(huì)，b如像是今天晚上，她們就要求我一定要做東，地方還是選在極其有小資情調(diào)的地方。                                                                                                             我嚴(yán)重懷疑這兩個(gè)人在婚姻生活之中遭受到了nve待，她們的老公絕對(duì)沒(méi)有滿足她們的需求，要知道吃乃人生第一大事，瞧這兩個(gè)人點(diǎn)了滿滿一桌的情況來(lái)看，我想她們一家人就進(jìn)入解放前的生活。                                                                                                             婚姻果真是ai情的墳?zāi)埂?nbsp;                                                                                                            當(dāng)然的，我這種論斷立馬地就被這兩個(gè)人一人一個(gè)旺旺牌斗筋卷給伺候了，在兩個(gè)人的嬉笑怒罵之中，好像我們?nèi)琅f在一起。                                                                                                             “我說(shuō)阿墨，今年的同學(xué)會(huì)你可得悠著點(diǎn)?！蔽难藕攘艘豢诩t酒，告誡我，“還記得江尚遠(yuǎn)不？”                                                                                                             當(dāng)然記得，渣男一號(hào)么！                                                                                                             我點(diǎn)頭，原本是想說(shuō)不記得，但是怕我這樣的回答會(huì)引來(lái)這兩個(gè)妞的不高興，會(huì)覺(jué)得我言辭之中太過(guò)于矯r0u造作。                                                                                                             對(duì)于江尚遠(yuǎn)這人，我還是記得的，只是我已經(jīng)不記得那張臉了，他有不是帥哥，不會(huì)讓我這么多年之后還會(huì)念念不忘的。                                                                                                             “提起那個(gè)江尚遠(yuǎn)姐就覺(jué)得蛋疼……”文雅扶額，像是想起了什么讓她痛苦不堪的記憶，“不，沒(méi)蛋都覺(jué)得疼?！?nbsp;                                                                                                            我覺(jué)得有點(diǎn)感興趣，能夠讓文雅jiejie如此黯然神傷，看起來(lái)這個(gè)男人還是有幾分能耐的?！霸趺椿厥?，趕緊說(shuō)說(shuō)?！?nbsp;                                                                                                            我鼓動(dòng)著，八卦么，哪個(gè)nv人不ai。                                                                                                             其實(shí)原因也無(wú)他，據(jù)說(shuō)江尚遠(yuǎn)此人這幾年混的還算是不錯(cuò)，據(jù)說(shuō)爬上了某個(gè)企業(yè)高管的地位，還傍上了那個(gè)企業(yè)的千金，從此拽的是二五八萬(wàn)的，一如孔雀把尾巴翹到了天上，經(jīng)常在大學(xué)那個(gè)群里面說(shuō)話，開(kāi)頭就是“哎呀，高管就是累啊”閉口就是“像我年紀(jì)輕輕爬到這個(gè)位子也算是不容易”。                                                                                                             我突然覺(jué)得我把那個(gè)大學(xué)群給屏蔽掉是無(wú)b正確的決定，不然天天聽(tīng)這個(gè)男人吹噓的論調(diào)，我沒(méi)蛋也得疼了。                                                                                                             原本這事的確是和我沒(méi)有什么關(guān)系，但是前一陣子文雅的公司真好和他所在公司有合作項(xiàng)目，所以文雅悲劇地和江尚遠(yuǎn)見(jiàn)了一次又一次。                                                                                                             然后，那男人有意無(wú)意地問(wèn)著我的境況。                                                                                                             “阿墨現(xiàn)在一定是后悔了當(dāng)年沒(méi)有和我在一起了吧，但是很可惜我已經(jīng)有了未婚妻，這一次的同學(xué)會(huì)上她還說(shuō)要和我一起去呢?！?nbsp;                                                                                                            這是那個(gè)不要臉的渣男一號(hào)最后的總結(jié)。                                                                                                             這渣男對(duì)我那森森的ai讓我萬(wàn)分糾結(jié)，我覺(jué)得我平常做人也還算不上是特別的失敗的吧，怎么就招惹上了這么一個(gè)妖孽，我對(duì)我?guī)啄昵暗难酃獗硎緡?yán)重懷疑。